07/19/2004: "Still not painting / Is PhotoShop becoming a crutch?""
I'm home today, using my vacation leave to take a lot of four-day weekends, which are my favorite. I got a lot done, bills paid, did laundry, I *finally* cleaned up the house and got my studio reorganized. Everything is clean and shiny now, I even cleaned out the bedroom where my treadmill is and got it ready for use again. Haven't needed it yet though, as the weather remains gorgeous and I've been taking lots of long walks and going for hikes at Treadwell.
Speaking of which, I got a gallery started for a tiny portion of the Treadwell photographs I took last week. They don't look that great yet, as I haven't had a chance to link them all to their larger sized versions yet and the thumbnails don't do them justice. What I really want to be concentrating on are the paintings.
The thing that is really frustrating me is that I don't have my computer fix so no PhotoShop, which Iíve become very dependent on prior to starting a new painting. Itís to the point that I can't (or won't) work without it. I had to do a thumbnail sketch for a woman who has commissioned me to do a painting and it was terrible to try and do it with watercolors although that's how I always used to do it and it had never been a problem before. I wonder if relying on PhotoShop so heavily has become a crutch that's going to hurt me or if it's a justifiable evolution of how I use technology for a traditional medium like oils?
Anyway, the universityís new graphic designer, Alison Caputo, came by for a visit on Thursday and showed me her website, which is I think is excellent. She showed me a lot of the work she's done and I was very impressed. It has made me rabid to buy a computerized drawing tablet thingy but I know nothing about them or how they work so I guess I'll have to look into them (new toys, yeah!).
Speaking of new toys, Jeff Jemison also came in on Thursday and showed me his new PANASONIC AG-DVC30 camcorder which was beautiful and also gave me pangs but even though awhile ago I said if I made enough money from painting sales this summer I'd buy a new mini-dv camcorder, I've decided to reinvest the money into my art business, supplies, getting the giclee prints done, having slides taken, etc. So I'll have to wait a little longer for the new camera.
I got an email from a visitor to this site enquiring as to which paintings were available so I emailed the gallery to find out and they wrote me back which ones were available, which I then sent to the man online; about 20 minutes later the gallery wrote me back that I had just sold another painting (Under the Devil's Club) which ironically, turned out to be the one the online guy had decided to buy!
But anyway, it means I've sold 7 out of 10 paintings so far...which is a new record for me in terms of the number of paintings sold during an exhibit. Very exciting. But it's kind of a mixed blessing too because I don't want to have inflated expectations for my next opening, or be driven to paint certain things in order to sell better (all the old arguments)... well, I can't worry about that, I just need to start painting again. Despite all my excitement and enthusiasm, I've been finding it difficult to get started. I haven't cracked open my oils in over two weeks now, which is terrible. The thing is, I don't have creative block or anything, I have more ideas than I know what to do with. I just can't start any of them. Any suggestions?