08/08/2005: "On getting real(istic)"
There was something about the opening that bothered me that I couldn't put my finger on until this morning...the fact that there was such lop sided interest in the one painting that required no imagination on my part. I just worked from a photograph I took of the water pump, it wasn't really even in my "style" that much, and it took less time, thought, and energy than any of the others. I feel like I've progressed and grown as an artist and yet there are still more people who respond to something I could have painted back in high school.
Even worse, I feel a certain amount of temptation to give the people what they want...although it is just a temptation, ultimately I'll continue to paint the way I want to. Mostly I feel a huge weight off my shoulders now that I don't have any shows lined up. Saturday I had to go to the urgent care clinic because I had a pretty severe case of kidney infection. This happens everytime I have a solo exhibit but they keep getting progressively worse and this time it was actually scary. It's just not worth it.
Then Sunday, after some power napping, Jen came over and we grilled halibut and corn on the cob and sat on the porch playing guitar in the sun. It was very relaxing. This morning I'm feeling better, ready to get my life back on track.