10/12/2005: "Wake me up when it's November"
Well, I haven't been writing much lately because the start of fall semester at a university is always the busiest, and just at the time when I need to be at the top of my game is the start of the rainy season here AND it starts getting darker earlier and earlier so my energy level plummets.
Last night I had to let my class out early because my hands were shaking so much I was having a hard time typing and quite frankly I was worried I might start crying in front of everybody. Plus I've been so negative, people probably hate being around me; I'm normally not that kind of person.
Then Monday night I met a former student in the library. She'd been in a serious car accident and suffered a traumatic brain injury and was trying to go back to school. This girl is so sweet and it broke my heart to talk to her. She has very little short term memory, she's gone through a personality change, she's lost most of her "friends" and she's very depressed because she can't do the majority of things that used to come naturally to her but you would never know that just by looking at her because she looks fine.
When I think of the challenges other people have to face, it makes me feel weak that I can't seem to handle normal life issues when I have all my faculties. I was thinking about what it would be like to go from being an intelligent, educated person, to having to relearn to speak or walk and not have the ability to retain new information. It must be such a nightmare.