01/31/2006: "Fool me once..."
Well, I turned in my quarterly sales taxes and business property tax assessment thingamajigs today (just in the nick of time) so that has taken some of the pressure off. Sorry if I've been acting like an ass lately. It's a slippery slope that separates art from business and I guess I've been sliding down the wrong end of it for awhile.
All the books I've been reading on setting goals and working towards a long-term plan, I guess I convinced myself that I was making headway in being able to make a living as an artist full-time which is the only thing I've ever *really* wanted (besides being a size 7)...and I could see it happening so clearly in my imagination...and a tiny bit of success fed the fantasy.
I realized today that I have to quit obsessing over this. I already get stressed out if I don't feel like I'm painting enough, I don't need anything else to keep me up at night. I have to quit letting the approval (or lack thereof) of others drive my ambition or make me feel like a failure if the numbers don't add up. I'm not going to starve to death even if I never sell another painting.
So, from now on I'm going to think positively, work on that book cover I was commissioned to do for Alaska Roadside Geology since I have to meet with the author soon. I'm also making a promise to myself to try and not think (or write) about *anything* directly related to business, marketing, or sales, etc. until I get my soul back on track. Can you say REALITY CHECK boys and girls?