05/03/2006: "When it can't get any worse, the real fun begins"
Last night I worked on the tango painting (yes I'm still painting)...I haven't been happy with it and everytime I worked on it, it seemed to get worse and worse. Finally last night I decided to pull the plug on it, or at least not put it in the show on Friday. It was about 9:00pm and once I made the decision to not use the painting, I thought, well, I'm just going to have fun with this since it's going on the heap anyway.
So I just randomly colored stuff in, not being too careful, decided to repaint the guys face and make his eyes open and facing the viewer, nothing too dramatic, but it was the sensation of working on a painting that I thought no one would ever see, that made it so liberating. Ever have that experience?
And the end result (though not dramatic or different at all in terms of my "style" etc.) is that I like it. I like it and I'm going to use it after all. So, I think the real catch 22 is that when you are still working on paintings up until the very last moment before you have to hang them, the worry that you might ruin them makes you stiffen up, and not paint at your best. Which is unfortunate because about half of my paintings I think I could improve if I just had a couple more weeks...but, it's time for me to stop now.