10/03/2006: "Life drawing, late night phone calls, and self-esteem"
So, it’s almost time for my life drawing session at the Ruby Room (which I really want to go to) but I’m feeling dead tired. This week I have a crazy, unrealistic amount of work due at my day job. That “balance” of which I was so smugly referring…is gone.
Yesterday I worked from home but the weather was so nice I kept taking little breaks, like to run down to my sailboat (where I took down the main sail for the season)…or out for lunch at the A&P. The sum result is that I had to keep working into the night.
I got a call from my sister in Anchorage wanting to know if I’d like to wish her a happy birthday. Doh! Sometimes I feel like such a failure at all the little social conventions we’re supposed to adhere to. Remembering birthdays and all that, I’m terrible at it but I know it’s important to people and it makes me feel like a cad.
Anyway, I tried to get to bed relatively early but got another call (the *new* me is trying answer my phone more) from a friend who knows I’m usually up late; I’d been lying in bed awake for over an hour anyway. Oh, I could say some things about our conversation…only I can’t, for various reasons. I know he was trying to give me a bit of an ego boost, but it sort of made me feel even worse (don't worry about it, you tried!)...Ooops…I better get going if I plan to make it in time.
It's later and I did go to the life drawing session. The model was excellent! This one's from a longer pose; it still has some problems but I feel like I'm loosening up again.