08/12/2005: "Then and Now"
A colleague from UAA emailed me because I'd asked him (years ago) to tell me if he ever decided to leave his job because I really wanted to get back to Anchorage and UAA. It turns out that he *is* going to be leaving now, and wanted to give me a heads up in case I was still interested.
I still remember so clearly how I felt when we'd had that conversation; I was so unhappy in Juneau and homesick and so f*&!ing nostalgic for Anchorage and my former life. Plus the weather here made me incredibly sad and sleepy all the time, I didn't know my job very well, I didn't have any close friends in town...I wanted nothing more than to get the hell out.
But I stayed and everything's different now. I realized when I read his email that I have no desire to go back to Anchorage...That I've grown to *love* it here. I'm making new friends, being handed interesting opportunities, I'm even learning to adjust to all things wet and foggy and get in shape again. I want to write this down so when the darkness returns I'll remember how I feel tonight:
Full from a dinner of organic veggies, a slight red wine buz, a tidy house, a garden in late summer bloom, 2 warm bundles of fur to cuddle, soft skin that smells like coconut oil, and pjs fresh from the dryer.