OK, shortest "break" from blogging ever!
Sunday night I felt worse than I can remember in a looooong time. I had spent the whole weekend sleeping and moping about the house feeling deserted by everyone. It had rained the entire weekend and I had totally pigged out on junk food for days plus I hadn't been painting for almost 2 weeks. Things seemed pretty grim.
But then I got a nice message on my machine from my dad reminding me that everyone goes through the blues and if you just hang on when things are at their worst, you could wake up the next day and everything could be better. And that's exactly what happened...so, to anyone else out there who feels like they're hanging on by a toe nail...tomorrow could be better!
Yesterday, for example, I only had to work a half day and it was sunny outside (rare) so I went for a morning hike and took a bunch of gorgeous rainforest photos which inspired me to start painting again (which I have so stay tuned)...
Devil's Club plants can grow as tall as trees, this is a tall one with the light shining throught the leaves.
I'm not sure what the name of this flower is...does anyone out there have an idea?
These are ferns and more low lying Devil's Club
These are the leaves of the yellow skunk cabbage flowers I paint sometimes.
Here are some gorgeous wild lupine...
These giant skunk cabbage leaves are taller than I am!
Here's a close-up of one of the lupine flowers
Here is another pretty show of Devil's Club with light shining through from behind. I've used similar images in several paintings because Devil's Club is one of my favorite plants...though the leaves and stalk are covered with sharp spines.
Anyway, after work yesterday I asked Alicia whom I hadn't seen in months, to go sailing with me which was exactly what I needed...being on the water really centers me...speaking of which, the photo below is from my sail last week with Brian and Anne (thanks Brian!).
Sooooo...today was another sunny day and I totally felt my energy return plus I feel excited about my ideas for new paintings. Tonight I went sailing with one of my oldest friends Julie and then we went out for dinner and had a long talk. I told her how sad I've been feeling lately, and how it seemed that all my friends had simultaneously ditched me.
She reminded me that the great majority of time I want to be alone in my studio and that I never answer my phone or the door etc. so any perception I had of being blown off (at least from her) was unwarranted. I know what she said is true. Seems like when I'm working on a show that's all I want to do, but then I expect to turn around when I can't work and everyone will be waiting for me at the drop of a hat...it just doesn't work that way. I have to be giving and receiving of mirth.
Anyway, I guess I just wanted to say that I'm feeling so much better now. Thanks to everyone for all the nice things you wrote yesterday and for all of the advice. Rather than an edict that I'm stopping my blog, I'll probably keep posting this summer, but only when the mood hits...now that I'm painting again I'm hoping the mood will hit me *a lot*...
(OK, be honest, I seem a little crazy now right?)