04/14/2008: "A pound of flesh"
Yes, it's that time of year again...TAX DAY! I finally did my taxes tonight, after countless encouraging emails and phone calls from my accountant I got all of my receipts tallied, all my official paperwork gathered, and everything faxed or emailed to him to actually file.
One thing that I find depressing is how poorly my "art business" is doing. I'm probably getting close to the "hobby" cut off point. My license is expired. I re-consulted my 10 year plan and I'm no further along than I was back 3 years ago when I wrote it. If anything I think I've been doing worse than ever. And it's not for lack of effort. I put a lot of time into thinking about art, and trying to come up with ideas, and doing thumbnails, and working on this website and blog, and looking at art and talking about art and talking about not making art...not to mention my rich art-related fantasy life and all those hours spent depressed in bed lamenting not painting or not having ideas.
When I do my taxes I look back over the year at how much I put into my art in terms of dollars and cents, and how much I made back, and it is always grim grim grim.
Now I'm already 4 months into 2008 with no sales at all. I know, I know...it's not about sales. But I'm afraid I'm going to have to cancel this July show which means no sales potentially until the Anchorage show in December. And what if that stinks or I have to cancel again? Maybe "art" and "business" just don't go well together...or not for me anyway. Maybe I should quit trying to make it a business and just do what I'm (at times) good at...making art. Of course...that hasn't been going so well either.
Oh well, at least I have my sight and use of my hands and if I'd just quit my damn yappin and start paintin, maybe I wouldn't have to go through this every April!
In happier news, I had several girlfriends come over to help me put together stuff for the wedding on Saturday which was fun and also a big help (thanks everyone). My sister even flew down from Anchorage for it. I feel so lucky to have the friends and family that I do. And speaking of feeling lucky, here's another cute photo of two of my sweeties...they were both being very helpful tonight as I toiled and cursed over said tax preparations. I think the expression on Osiris's face is priceless. He has resigned himself to the hundreds of hugs and kisses Aaron gives him everynight, doesn't even try to get away anymore. LOL